Yuki no Hitohira

blue_berii @ 2007-04-05T11:12:00

2007-04-05T09:13:18Z

Git this from luvkangta:

Because I Must
If you comment...

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5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal so you can do the same for other people

blue_berii @ 2007-03-19T21:55:00

2007-03-19T20:57:19Z

more YooSu

Needed and found Time

Yoochun left the recording-area after Jaejoong and followed him to their members-room.

When they opened the door the others were already there and he discovered Yunho immediately,

standing at the window. Changmin lay on the couch and followed Jaejoong’s way with tired eyes.

Yoochun let himself down on a chair and stroked through his hair, trying to loosen his curles a bit.

His limbs felt heavy and a little heachache threatened to come up.

Tomorrow they would record the last song and then they had some days off. Changmin had already made plans for these days. He wanted to go to some parks and would pull Yunho with him.

Yoochun hadn’t planned anything, he was happy about every second he could spend at home.

Sleeping, watching TV and hopefully getting proper meals from Jaejoong.

He sighed and grabbed the water bottle, which stood randomly on the table. The liquid cooled his scratchy throat pleasantly.

Changmin whispered something in a soft tone and Jaejoong agreed. They always were very quiet in their room, they needed some silence. Yunho turned around slowly and gave his two friends a tired smile. His body was framed by the light which came through the window and Yoochun could hear him

saying something to cheer Min up. The younger one giggled a bit. The low conversation of these familiar voices gave Yoochun a comfortable feeling. He inhaled deeply.

And then he noticed that he was missing one. Three of his friends were here, sitting and standing some meters away.

Suddenly he was nudged on his leg. Looking confused under the table he discovered the missing member.

“Junsuuu!” he whispered and slid down. The other boy beckoned him closer and Yoochun kneeled down completely.

“What –“

“Shush.” Junsu beckoned again and the other boy scrabbled closer to him.

”Are you hiding?” Junsu blushed.

“I was looking for my mobilephone in my bag.” Yoochun discovered the dark blue bag, which laid on Junsus lap.

“I see …” a moment of silence followed.

“I miss you.” Yoochun looked up into shimmering eyes.

One hand found its way to a slighty red cheek and stroked softly over it. Junsu huddled against this warm hand and moved with it up and down slowly. “I … I missed you too.” Junsu’s voice was hoarse and he swallowed.

Shaking Yoochun moved forward. He felt strange, they hadn’t spoken for a while. Something had changed between them during the last days. Weeks.

He wasn’t sure what exactly had changed, but he was sure they had to assure their relationship.

It was very weak and both of them felt it.

Yoochun heard their breathing and tried not to recognize the distance.

He pulled Junsu closer, caressing the soft skin with his thumb and then met waiting lips.

They were very cautious, but it was obvious that this kiss was needed.

A quiet, sweet smack was heard when they parted.

Yoochun’s hand remained on Junsu’s cheek, not willing to let him go.They exchanged worried and loving looks.

“I want to see you more often.”

Yoochun nodded.

“Go out with me.”

“What? Like a date?” Yoochun saw his plan to chill out threatened. Then Junsu nodded shyly.

Yoochun inhaled and smiled.

“Okay, we will have a date then.” He hoped that this date would save their relationship.

II.

Two days had past off since the meeting under the table and Yoochun slept for ages, for the displeasure of Junsu.

“Is Yoochun still sleeping?” He pouted when they were sitting on the breakfast table.

“Yes, he is.” Jaejoong handed his friend a cup of coffee.

When he noticed Junsu’s frowning he added: ”He needs his sleep, he seemed a bit groggy yesterday evening.”

Junsu was still pouting, but after a little while his face was full of concern.

“I’ll bring him some tea.” he stood up and left his breakfast without even trying it.

The bed-room was full of light because Changmin had opened the blinds, as he always did. He just left one closed, the one over Yoochun’s bed.

It smelled like fresh bed-linen and Junsu felt a cool breeze on his arms.

He placed the mug on the little table next to Changmin’s bed.

Yoochun was still asleep, huging his pillow, on which his head was resting. He breathed slowly and Junsu knew exactly how exhausted he was.

A slightly shaking finger stroked over Yoochun’s cheek, down to his neck.

Yoochun frowned and sighed, still sleeping.

Junsu continued his soft stroking and dared to add another finger.

He inhaled deeply, to get more of the sweet scent which hung in the room. It slightly smelled like Yoochun.

This one was blinking a bit , but then it suddenly stopped.

Yoochun opened his eyes and shot a lovely look at Junsu.

Junsu’s eyes widened and he retracted his hand with a shy look.

“Good … good morning.” he whispered shyly.

Yoochun smiled brightly

He unfurled his armes and stretched himself, rolling over his bed to the wall.

A sigh was heard and a thump, when Yoochun reached the wall.

He didn’t move a few seconds, but then a grumble was heard and he rolled back to a confused looking Junsu.

”What a lovely way to wake me up.” his voice was low but Junsu heard every single word before he was pulled under the blanked.

Yoochun’s strong arms embraced him gently and soft fingers pressed him closer to the other man.

Then those fingers entangled with Junsu’s hair and stroked him slowly.

Junsu wrapped his armes around the other warm body and clung to him. Yoochun smelled gorgeous.

He enwinded their legs and let their stomachs met.

Junsu sighed and burried his nose in the old T-shirt, which covered Yoochun’s shoulder.

Their closeness seemed as if it has never been interrupted.

“So, where would you like to go today night?”

Junsu seemed a bit hoarse when he answered.

“I want to stay here in your bed with you and don’t dare to wear anything!”

YooSu facts

2007-03-19T20:48:46Z

some facts about YooSu:

Facts about YooSu

01. Every time Yoochun buys himself ice-cream, he is very lucky when he gets two spoons of it because Junsu is either licking on his ice-cream or on his lips.

02. When Yoochun and Junsu are lying on the floor in the living-room, giggling, chuckling and kissing each other, nobody can get into their world.

03. Yoochun never wants to fall asleep at night; but the fact that Junsu’s face is the first thing he sees in the morning makes it easier.

04. Each christmas Yoochun gets a huge box of askew and broken chocolate-chip-cookies and he loves to eat them.

05. It took Junsu a bit of time and trouble to get as close to Yoochun as he is today, but he thinks it is worth all the patience and restraint.

06. Changmin knows that, when he calls Junsu and nobody answers after the secound time, he can’t attain him. In most of the cases Yoochun is playing with Junsu and his balls.

07. When Jaejoong flirtes with Junsu and Yoochun stays cool, Junsu gets quite fidgety and jealous.

08. Junsu thinks Yoochun is very good at playing with balls. He always takes him out to the soccerfield.

09. Because Junsu loves cookies a lot, Yoochun is very lucky when he gets a couple of the christmas-biscuits he has gotten as a present.

10. Formerly Yoochun hated christmas and to spend his holidays “at home”. But recently he loves it as much as he loves every other time he can be with Junsu.

11. Junsu has laughed at the love-bewitched Changmin who couldn’t think coherently. Then he met Yoochun and Junsu was bedeviled too.

12. If Jaejoong is bothering Junsu too much, Yoochun runs towards them and becomes a real protector.

13. The meetings with their management-team are spend writing little “Wanna kiss you madly”-notes for Yoochun.

14. Yoochun always looks as guilty as Junsu does, when they get a lecture from Yunho about a broken vase; also if it wasn’t his fault.

15. Junsu always wakes up when a thunderstorm is raging otuside. Then he wakes Yoochun up, not because he is scared, but because he wants to do sizzling things.

16. Since Junsu has met Yoochun he is a love-addcit.

17. Every sunday afternoon Junsu tries to cook a big dinner and every Sunday evening Jaejoong needs to make a reparation.

18. Yoochun thinks that the lines Junsu sings are the soundtrack of his life.

19. Since Yoochun fed Junsu with all of his ice-cream on their first date, Junsu has a weak spot for sweets; especially those which are owned by Yoochun (or which are Yoochun).

20. Sometimes Yoochun gets rigorous looks from Yunho for turning the once been pure and straight Junsu into a moving seduction; Yoochun then shrugs and grins and says he couldn’t help himself.

21. Yoochun just shruges when Junsu is supposed to sing a duet with a female singer.

22. Neither Changmin’s watery eyes nor Jaejoong’s pouting make Yoochun doing something; it is only Junsu’s look, even if he has no idea what is going on.

23. When Yoochun and Junsu had their first date they were at the skating rink and it started to snow.

24. Junsu realised that Yoochun has wicked fingers when they shared a bed together the first time; and now he is bewitched.

25. Every time Yoochun sees Junsu smiling he falls for him again and again

26. Junsu loves to snuggle into Yoochun’s trousers.

27. To Yoochun’s mind there is nothing smoother than Junsu’s skin.

28. Sometimes Junsu is frustrated because his bum has another shape then others. Yoochun then drags him into his bedroom and shows him what wonderful things Junsu can do with his wonderful bottom.

29. It is only Yoochun’s hug, which gives Junsu energy to get through times of pressure.

30. In Japanese-lessons Yoochun and Junsu always share a book and whenever Junsu is bored he draws little hearts witht heir names in on the pages.

31. Junsu is confident that it will last until his death; because breaking apart with Yoochun would certainly kill him.

32. Changmin thinks Junsu is pure and chaste; Yoochun then shakes his head while he is remembering how hard and rough Junsu does it like sometimes.

33. When Junsu cries and Yoochun embraces him gently everything is fine again.

34. It is hard for Yoochun to sing his lines without having Junsu’s voice heard before.

35. In their holidays Yoochun and Junsu secretly stay at home and use the empty house for things which involve heated rooms, a cool shower and much of the two of them.

36. Being alone means for Junsu being with Yoochun. Alone.

37. Nothing makes Junsu desperate, only a crying Yoochun.

blue_berii @ 2007-01-04T21:13:00

2007-01-04T20:20:00Z

stolen from luvkangta:

In 2007, blue_berii resolves to...

Volunteer to spend time with bluechocs.
Get back in contact with some old kissuchans.
Admit my true feelings to caspien_sea.
Eat more ima_insects.
Connect with my inner nhaca_writes.
Buy new styx_no_nekos.

oh well, I wonder how Ima thinks about me eating her ^^;;

Sweet and Dry Date

2006-12-26T01:48:39Z

Title: Sweet and Dry Date
Pairing: HoSu, YooMin
Rating: PG
Form: One-Shot

Sweet or Dry Date

There was a christmas market held downtown and at least three of the five boys loved street markets.

Since they got some afternoons off Yoochun and Changmin hardly spent time at home. They usually left right after lunch and didn’t return before it had already been dark for hours.
It was mostly Changmin who reminded Yoochun of their intention to go out. When they were getting ready he teased and pressed him to make Yoochun move faster although he wasn’t ready himself. Then Yoochun hit him and Changmin stuck out his tongue between his grinning lips, before they finally left the house with a lot of giggles.

Junsu spent afternoons with inventing what Yoochun and Changmin might do down there. Yoochun would probably stop at each toy-stall, well rather tried to because Changmin would pull him further to the sweets- and cookie-stalls. They would have a little argument about their route, giggle a lot and then end up having a piece of sweet pie together.
Junsu thought about that every time they went out, just to avoid dreaming about his own date on the market.

But today he was the one who had left the apartment.
How they had arranged that date Junsu couldn’t say, his heart just jumped about the chance to be with Yunho.

Now he was walking next to him and took his hand boldly in his own to pull him to the nearest stalls.
“Look, Yunho, they are selling cakes, christmas cakes from the US,” he smiled brightly and pulled the other man over to one of the sales booth. “Those are imported, Junsu, and full of sugar, let’s find something healthier.”

“Yunho, that frog looks exaaactly like Yoochun!” Junsu stood proudly in front of a green frog, squeezing Yunho’s fingers a bit.
“Uhm … no, Yoochun’s smile is more stupid. But look, that dolphin looks like you!” he smiled sillily and with slightly blushed cheeks at a suddenly annoyed Junsu.

“Balloons, yay, a balloon-stall. They even have red ones!” Junsu ran a few steps and stopped at the stall. He watched the old man selling the balloons and the little children paying with their pocket money one by one. His eyes were sparkling and he beckoned to Yunho to come closer.
“That’s so sweet! When I was little I always bought red balloons on street markets. Did you do that as well?”
“No …” Junsu’s smile disappeared when he heard that well-known voice. Then Yunho sighed. “You will get a balloon soon, okay? They will be a lot in our new MV, right?”
Yunho chuckled a bit and beckoned him to leave. Junsu shot one last look at the kids and then followed him with a distance.

They passed a roundabout and some other cookie-stalls and Junsu tried to inspire Yunho every time. With no success.
He didn’t want sweets as well as nice memories and Junsu was gradually becoming sad and annoyed.

“Junsu? Can you wait here for a moment?” Yunho guiged him to a bench somewhere at the end of the market and pushed him down gently.
“What are you doing? You’re letting me alone?” Junsu became exasperated.
“Yunho, you’re somewhat distracted today. Where is your sweetness gone? Especially today I’m missing it a lot.”
“I’ll be back in a minute.” Junsu stuck out hit tongue when Yunho left him.

Junsu sat on that bench with crossed arms and refused to look around. He didn’t want to know what Yunho was doing or where he was, he wasn’t as sweet as he could be and Junsu was annoyed by that. You should be sweet on a date with Junsu! He was pouting now and one has to give some trouble to get him happy again. Yoochun can tell you a story about that …

Suddenly a big cloud of candy floss appeared in front of Junsu. His eyes widened and his mouth dropped open in surprise. He looked up to the one who offered it to him.
“Take it, it’s for you ...” Yunho’s voice was low and scratchy and his cheeks were reddened. Junsu took it and mumbled a shy “Thank you”.
When the sweetness of the situation reached his head and heart he burst into a bright smile and took a bit of the floss. Yunho took place next to him and leaned back.
They remaind sitting on that bench in silence for a while; Junsu still smiling at his candy floss and Yunho secretly regarding him.

Then the disturbance Yunho had tried to ban at home approached with fast steps.
“Hey you two,” Changmin smiled, rather grinned knowingly, holding a string with a big red balloon.
“What are you doing here?” Junsu asked astonished and pulled out of his date-dreams. Since they had entered the christmas market he was preoccupied with thinking about nothing else than Yunho and being with him. He wasn’t even aware of the fact that he had friends who loved the market as much as he did and he was mentally poking that red balloon in Changmin’s hand.
“Yeah, exactly, what are you doing here??” Yunho reaffirmed the question. His confused and slightly annoyed expression met Yoochun’s grin, when this one appeared behind Changmin, facing Yunho boldly.
“Yunho hyung, you are not the only one who gives orders!” he grinned. Yunho crunched with his teeth, stood up and grabbed Yoochun’s arm to pull him away.

“So why are you here?”
“We were at home exactly like you ordered, but it was boring and we didn’t want to molest Jaejoong. After four hours without another instruction on your part he gave us the permission to leave the house. Furthermore …” Yoochun’s smile became mischievous and he came a bit closer to Yunho. “… you don’t dare to kiss him anyway, do you?”
Yunho blushed, causing Yoochun to giggle.
“Shush, you’re still my dongsaeng!”
“I keep that in mind when you ask me about sucking on things the next time.” Yunho blushed even more, but before he could scold at Yoochun in any way his friend pulled a little box with white and purple stripes out of his pocket.
”Here, Changmin and I did some calculations,” he handed the box to Yunho. ”These are your and Junsu’s favorite chocolate pieces and we thought when you give him some, you are tempted to kiss him even more and will finally act.” Yoochun smiled encouragingly and nodded.
Yunho hesitated, mulling the plan over. Then he smiled satisfied and took the box. “Thanks to you two!” he nudged Yoochun gently.

Meanwhile Changmin had sat down next to Junsu and helped himself to some candy floss; Junsu kept staring after Yunho and Yoochun.
“Why is he alone with Yoochun now?” Changmin grinned. “Yunho probably wants to know why we are molesting him in his flirth with you,” he grinned even wider when Junsu turned over to stare at him. “He told us to stay at home while you’re out. Yoochun said he is planning big things, sooo Junsu ah, what happened til now? Did we disturb your romance?” his voice has gotten a high tone and he was grinning widely at Junsu.

“W-what? …” Changmin took some more candy floss and giggled at his speechless friend.
“Yoochun said …?” Junsu’s voice broke off.
“Yes, they are talking much lately. Yunho wants to know a lot and Yoochun knows a lot about you because of me and a lot about romances, right?”

“Yeah, but …”
“Yunho is a bit shy in those things, Junsu, and you know Yoochun is the expert! Oh by the way, your candy floss is good, where did you buy it?”
“It’s from Yunho.”
”Oh really? That’s so nice! He is learning from my sweetheart.” Changmin couldn’t help but laugh about Junsu’s death glare.
“Yunho knows how to be sweet himself. If he would copy Yoochun he would be a rude and silly kid, without any sense of romantic things and seduction.“ Changmin laughed even louder.
When he got himself in control again he could manage to breath: “You seem to know Yoochun not in the slightest.”

Junsu poked his friend. “They’re coming back.”
Changmin’s laughter switched into a mere smile.
“Are you two done?” he asked sweetly and stood up, strolling over to his boy-friend.
“We are, so are you ready too? You seem to have a nice talk.” Yoochun pulled him closer and embraced him gently.
“We had, Junsu just said you were rude and not … seductive.” He was whispering and was cut off by Yoochun kissing him.

“Am I?” Yoochun’s voice was deep and slow and let Changmin shudder and blush.
“I think we should go … home.” Yoochun bit on his lower lip and smiled ecstatically when Changmin nodded shyly. So many plans and ideas popped into his mind.

“Okay, then, we’re off. Have fun!” Yoochun beckoned and pulled his boyfriend away, who had started talking about different places in the house, where they wouldn’t bother Jaejoong.

They left the other two in silence. Junsu looked after them and then to his candy floss, which had shrunk since Changmin had been with him.
“Hm.” He took the last bit and threw the empty stick away. “Min eats everything …”
“Oh, did he have all your candy floss?” Yunho quickly took place next to Junsu.
“Well, look, I have something else for you.” He opened the striped box and took one of the chocolate pieces.
”Oh Yunho, those are soo so delicious.” Junsu brightened and opened his mouth for Yunho to fill it and soon he chewed on a big piece of chocolate with caramell and sugar on top.
“Hmm!” he smiled widely. “They are so good!” he opened his mouth again with closed eyes, but now it was filled with Yunho, who pressed tgeir lips together gently.

When Junsu became conpletely aware of their doing he deepened the kiss and Yunho noticed that he tasted like chocolate, he mate a mental note to thank Yoochun and Changmin for their disturbance.

blue_berii @ 2006-12-10T19:53:00

2006-12-10T18:53:01Z

I took some pics on friday, to calm myself down.

I.

II.

III.

stolen from anaya (we have done that yet lol)

2006-11-29T16:58:11Z

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN...
1. Do we know each other outside of Live Journal?
2. What's your philosophy on life?
3. Would you have my back in a fight?
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
5. What is your favorite memory of us?
6. Would you give me a kidney?
7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
9. Can we get together and make a cake?
10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?
11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you drive across country with me?
14. Do you think I'm attractive?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
18. Would you go on a date with me if i asked you?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

blue_berii @ 2006-11-04T20:10:00

2006-11-04T19:10:14Z

I'm down somehow

sorry for the less words

FanFiction - Bare Skin III

2006-11-04T00:51:10Z

Bare Skin III – The Punishment

Junsu giggled happily and moved a bit closer to Yoochun, making their shoulders touch. Yoochun shot a rapt look at him and continued telling him funny stuff, which easily became dirty.
Junsu put his fingers on his mouth to prevent his sweet chuckling from becoming a proper laughing. His other hand secretly found his way to Yoochun’s femoral and suddenly Yoochun’s look – smile – was demanding and with not only a hint of seduction in it.

The other three boys were eating their dinner silently. It was easy for them to ignore the love-talk from their two bandmates, being captured in their own world and just being aware of – or trying not to be, in Yunho’s case – their own boyfriends.

“Min, could you help me with the dishes?” Jaejoong asked when they had finished and the younger one nodded, not being sure what was going to happen.
“And you two, go somewhere else, do something else. I think no one of us wants to watch you again.” and with that Yunho pushed Yoochun and Junsu out of the room and closed the door. He sighed when he heard them giggling in the floor.

The clattering of the plates was heard when Changmin got them from Jaejoong and then when he put them into the cupboard.

“Was it good at least?” Changmin turned towards Yunho and placed the plate into the cupboard without looking at it. But he was not in the mood for a glaring contest and returned to the dishes he got from Jaejoong.
“So, you care about that?” he was more in the mood for a verbal contest.
“You think I don’t?”
“Seemed like that.”

Yunho pushed himself away from the door he had been leaning against.
“You seemed quite careless as well.” A moan was heard from Yoochun’s room and Changmin smirked secretly, seeing the tension Yunho had tried to create fading away.
Changmin sighed, still smiling.

They had finished the washing up and Jaejoong passed by Yunho nonchalantly, Changmin following him, with his look turned down. He still didn’t dare to look at his boyfriend, he was better with words.

Yunho stared into the empty kitchen and fought with his stubbornness.
When he had finally figured out that he needed to clarify that Changmin was his – alright and Jaejoong’s – and that he had to go into the living room for that, he forced himself to move.

Both boys were still silent, but another moan was heard. Yunho rolled his eyes and thought about his heavy burden to be in charge of decent behavior and the providing of private space. He would have to punish those two for being that loud. But before that he had to punish someone else.

“Why did they actually want you?”
Changmin’s chuckle sounded innocently.
“They didn’t want me. In fact not as less as you did, they are usually completely occupied with themselves. But … Yoochun had to do a favour for me, since last friday.”
Yunho arched an eyebrown.
“And he did that to you?” Changmin shrugged.
“You didn’t want me either.” now he was directly looking in Yunho’s eyes with a bold expression. Suddenly he was confident he would be the winner because Yunho’s concentration was disturbed by other lovely groans from Junsu. At least it should be …

But after two minutes several deep winkles had appeared on Changmin’s forehead, whereas Yunho’s expression hadn’t changed a bit. The younger one cleared his throat, trying to prevent hot images coming up in his mind.
This struggle was harder than he had expected it to be … Yoochun, please make Junsu stop! Changmin swallowed.

Both pairs of eyes lost each other at the same time when Changmin was suddenly entwined by his other lover.
“Yunho, why don’t you just stop and … help me with that gorgeous boy here?”, Jaejoong purred with his most seductive voice in Changmin’s ear. Changmin stared at him, blushing hottly. A hot kiss was placed on his shoulder and Jaejoong pulled on his shirt.
“Yunhoooooo” another purr and a hand was reached out in Yunho’s direction.

A moan and a scream was heard from the room next door and the three of them knew Junsu had come. Now Jaejoong wasn’t the only horny one anymore. (Or was it due to his other hand in Changmin’s pants that someone else was already hard?)

Yunho was dragged closer to his lovers and felt Jaejoong’s hand on his femoral. But before he could be enthrilled by him completely he pushed Changmin down on the floor. He needed to take possesion of him again. As well as Jaejoong and Changmin gasped in arousal.

blue_berii @ 2006-11-02T21:16:00

2006-11-02T20:16:16Z

Somehow quiet exhaution is creeping up in me. It is always the same around this time, I have to watch myself to not become 'tired' or ill because of the lack of sun and the coldness. But it is alright, I'm fine.

It was 0°C today o.O that IS cold, you can't tell me something else. Furthermore it started to rain today morning and when we had an English lesson it switched into snow-rain. The weather changed very quickly!

I'm a little annoyed at the moment.

I havn't been at school last friday (alright it is my own fault when I missed something, I wasn't really ill) and we had a history-lesson in which we got a homework. So and when did someone tell me about that? Today afternoon; and we have to do that for tomorrow. Everything would be okay, if it would not be about 15 pages ... -.-
Thanks to Florence, who was supposed tot ell me about those tasks.
As if I would not need to do that ...

Anyway, the reason because I havn't been at school was becaue we were at the Panic!At the Disco-concert, and let me tell you that it was amazing!
The concert itself was great, althought I lost the others and was pushed away from the stage. The music is so great!
But to be honest, the autograph-session and the 'private'-concert we got before in a music-store was far better.

the whole band:

there were about 100 people so we could hear and see everything clearly, it was wonderful!
They sang two songs and then we could go to them to get an autograph o^-^o

The whole evening we were in hurry when we had to change places like getting from the concert-hall to the train station (we really had to get that particular train, otherwise we had to wait until 9 o'clock in the mroning)

We then drove to Hamm, where this picture was taken. We had to wait there for aboutt hree hours, from 2 till 5 am to get the train back. It was a little adventture but I was too tired to be excited anymore (in addition to that: too exciting things had happened that evening that I was hardly impressed by sitting in a train station far away from home in the middle of the night (lucky us, no one was there!))

Julia - lela - me

~

I should be gone by now, I need a rest somehow
sleep well

FanFiction - YooSu

2006-11-01T19:23:35Z

Title: Go Along
Pairing: Yoochun & Junsu
Form: Short Story
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance, Fluff
Summary: The boys are in Japan, giving concerts and, well, Junsu is in love (sorry, that it is that long >.<)

Go Along

Junsu’s heart ran as fast as possible and he was hot. His clothes stuck to his limbs and he seeked for air. His sweaty hand clasped something firm and he had to pay attention to not loose it.
Muttering filled up the building as well as his entire body.
He looked into the darkness and blinked, catching some lights of glow-sticks.
When he inhaled deeply, warm, stuffy and moist air reached his lung.

Then hot and clear light hit him hard and the muttering immediately increased to screaming.
Junsu outstretched his hand and held his micro up in the light. A smile was fixed on his lips and a shudder of excitement slid down his spine. Again.

They beckoned to the crowd and suddenly they found themselves in a silver rain of confetti.
“Thank you all!” Junsu’s heart jumped to his throat, when he heard this husky voice. The screaming became louder and he wished to hear it again.

“Thank you!” there it was, and Junsu resisted the urge to turn around, to face him. Instead he moved into the opposite direction and was the first, who left the stage.

He walked down a few steps and entered the dark passage to the backstage-area, which he knew like the back of his hand. His band-mates followed him and Jaejoong even clung to his arm, to not stumble in the darkness. Junsu felt the warm hand, but was barely aware of its owner.

When he reached the lightened staff-rooms, he immediately threw away his white coat and started to cheer and jump.
Also his friends burst out in happiness and relief and were joined by all the staff-members.
“Well done, guys! That was a fabulous concert!” their manager patted Jaejoong’s shoulder, who was beaming at him.
Junsu overlooked them and screened the crowd for someone else, someone who always had his full attention. And there he was, talking to a random girl of the stylists-team, who smiled at him almost crazily.
Junsu slipped through Yunho and Changmin, who were hugging each other and passed by some cheering engineers. Then he reached him.
“Yoochuuun!” his friend turned around, a bit astonished and a second later he found himself in Junsu’s loving embrace.
Junsu clung to him and pulled him as close as possible. Their cheeks met when Yoochun wrapped his arms around him and Junsu’s heart ran overactive. He inhaled Yoochun’s scent and shivered slightly. Hair tickled his ear and their shirts seemed to stick on both bodies, which matched perfectly to the other.
Feeling pressed together that tightly, it seemed as if there were a unity and Junsu’s wishes were fulfilled for a moment.

Then Yunho appeared behind him and wrapped his arms around the two boys.
“Hey my loves, good job! TVXQ would be nothing without you!”, and by these words a bottle of water was poured out on Junsu’s and Yoochun’s head.

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The next morning Junsu was woken up by a wet foot, which was thrust between him and the mattress. He yawned sleepily and opened his eyes to discover Chamgmin, who sat on his bed next to Junsu’s and smiled cheerfully. Then the innocent smile switched into a mischievous grin and Junsu felt the foot moving. It was pushed farther under his back, causing Junsu to groan in displeasure. He tried to roll away from it, but he cool foot followed him eagerly. Changmin’s smile became a smirk and he didn’t stop teasing him until Junsu finally sat up.

His hair stuck out into all directions and Changmin started to laugh.
“You look so cool in the morning.” Junsu blinked tiredly. He smelled a fresh smell of oranges and noticed that his friend was only wearing a pair of black boxers. He opened his eyes entirely and noticed that they were quite different to those Changmin usually wore. They were tight and seemed to be glued on the younger man’s body like a second skin.
“Don’t laugh!” Junsu threw his pillow towards his friend. “And get dressed. I’m not supposed to see you naked.”
Changmin withdrew his foot, still giggling. “I’m not naked, Su!”

Junsu sighed. “Those boxers are to tight to be proper clothes.” His eyes became smaller and he averted his look away from that sigh. “Since when do you wear such provocative stuff?”

The younger man jumped up full of energy and posed, his hands placed on his waist. “They are new. I bought them for someone special.” Presenting his new boxers he grinned childishly and watched Junsu falling back onto his bed.
“Ah, don’t tell me!” He pulled the blanket over his shoulders.
“No, I certainly won’t. You’re talking too much.” Changmin chuckled and threw the pillow back on Junsu’s head.
“You should get up when you want to have breakfast. It will be over in an hour.”
Junsu rolled on his side and mumbled. “You’re always changing, Min.”

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Yoochun and Jaejoong had already taken place on a table in the dining area, away from other hotel guests. They had ordered tea and coffee and were enjoying the ease of the morning.
“Good morning!” Changmin said sweetly and dropped down beside the oldest one. He stroked softly over Jaejoong’s back and leaned on his bare shoulder to get a look into the newspaper which lay unfolded on the table. Junsu took the seat next to Yoochun, pleased that it was still free.

Yoochun smiled a good-morning-my-dear-smile at him and Junsu blushed and pressed his lips slightly together to avoid a wide grin. Getting Yoochun’s attention always made him smile like a little kid when it wakes up on his birthday, surrounded with presents.

The only thing which got Junsu’s smirk fade was the dreamy smile which now laid on Yhoochun’s lips, making him to the most beautiful person in the world.

With a warm feeling in his stomach Junsu took the coffeepot to fill his cup, trying to get distracted.
He needed some caffeine now, hopefully it would push him out of his dreams completely.

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Junsu couldn’t say when exactly he fell for him, he just knew it was ages ago. Primary it had been a childish love, half friendship, half amorousness. But then, during the last couple of months, his love increased so much, thus just the hint of Yoochun took his breath away.
The thoughts about them playing football in the living-room or throwing pillows around in fun were replaced by the wish for spending the whole day together, cuddling and kissing.

Whenever he saw Yoochun the urge to drag him out of the room, into a dark corner became utterly mortifying.

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While he was looking for the milk he suddenly noticed that Yoochun’s cup was filled with a very light liquid.
“Hey, what’s that? Our coffee-addict is drinking tea?” Yoochun looked up and nodded regretfully. “My throat is a bit scratchy and Jaejoong forced me to peppermint-tea.”
“Oh, poor Yoochunnie.” Junsu smirked. “Is it that bad?”
Yoochun joined his grin. “Yeah, somehow, I missed some tones last night, didn’t you notice?” he made a little grimace.

“No, I thought it was Yunho.” of course he did not. He naturally was able to distinguish his bandmate’s voices and of course he had been aware of every single sound, which had come from Yoochun.

“No, it was me. I didn’t get … the high tones.”
Junsu’s eyes were widened and he would have liked to pull Yoochun into a tight embrace, entwining him completely as an encouragement. But he didn’t dare to.

“Hm … maybe you’re concentrating too much on the low tones, which you already master perfectly.” Junsu shifted slightly and added hesitantly: “I … I could help you with the high ones, if … if you like.”
Yoochun’s head was lifted up in a sudden and an elated smile was drawn on his lips, giving Junsu a really good feeling.

“You really would do that?” Junsu nodded vehemently as an answer to that sweet and hopeful smile. “But we shouldn’t do that here, Su. We could go into the studio; there certainly won’t be many people today and we have all the equipments we need.”
Junsu nodded in agreement and a slight flush flew over his cheeks. The thought about him being alone with Yoochun made him unable to retard his brilliant smile.

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Junsu followed Yoochun through the company-building without looking anywhere. He had discovered a little ringlet below Yoochun’s ear and couldn’t stop wondering wheather it felt as soft as it looked like.
Yoochun’s hair used to be very soft, but since they started to curl it, it felt a bit dry sometimes as well as brittle. But it always looked soft and smoothy and this ringlet in particular, Junsu thought and dug his teeth in his bottom lip to avoid a childish smile.
Being in love with that curl he hardly noticed that all the recording studios they went to were occupied.

After the fifth refusal Yoochun decided to use their private member-room, which they had been provided with by the company. They entered and sat down on the table. Junsu sighed mentally and drew his attention to the bunch of songs they had taken along. He should concentrate on other things, he thought; he couldn’t peer to that curl anyway, it was below the ear which wasn’t turned towards him.

Yoochun arranged his chair. “With which songs shall we start?”
“Hm …”
“How about ‘Miduyo’?” Junsu nodded, still looking through the sheets of notes.
“Yeah, try that. The old songs are mostly easier.”
Junsu was just about to scrutinise the arrangement of “The Dong Bang Spirit”, being proud of himself that he got himself to pay more attention to the work they intended to do than to the shape of one of Yoochun’s strands, when his thoughts suddenly refused to work coherently.

A sweet and melodic “Sarang hae …” in Yoochun’s unique voice filled up the room.

Junsu’s body was petrified. He felt his heartbeat in his throat and clung to the sheets he was holding. Just to hold tight to something, maybe also to avoid melting away completely. He was wondering how somebody could have such a beautiful voice, since he had heard Yoochun sing the first time. And now even the content of the lines consisted of the sweetest words ever.
An inner voice urged him strongly to turn towards Yoochun and tell him all about his love and appreciation. He then could kiss him senseless. Or being kissed senseless, Junsu would have loved both. He blushed and really turned towards the other boy.
He opened his mouth to follow the demand of that voice in his stomach, but suddenly the love in the air faded and Yoochun continued with the following lines of the song.

Junsu swallowed all the thoughts and wishes, pressed his hands on his face and inhaled deeply. Alright, remember, it is only a song written by a random employee, he repeated in his head a couple of times before he removed his hands and nodded towards Yoochun.

“That was great. But you see, your… your voice always breaks when it comes to those tones.” It was against all of Junsu’s will and senses to criticize Yoochun’s voice or way of singing; but they were here for that, weren’t they?
“Try to sing them more in the throat than in the stomach. The stomach is intended for the low tones, remember?.” He smiled weakly, but felt far better when he got back a brilliant smile from that graceful face he saw in his dreams.

When Junsu had managed to recover completely he demonstrated several different ways of singing and Yoochun made another attempt. This time it was better and they continued with some newer songs and reviewed some parts.

Druing the time they spent practising difficult tones - not without fooling around and making jokes about their absent band-members - Yoochun improved his voice gradually. It helped him a lot to have Junsu as a private instructor, who supported and trained him.

After two hours Yoochun suggested to take a break

“Two hours? Really? It seemed to be just a few minutes!” Junsu smiled. “Your voice is quite suitable for my lines, but don’t try Changmin’s parts, they are certain death for everyone, who is used to low vocal-parts.” Yoochun laughed in a high voice and shook his head vehemently. “I wasn’t going to, I’m certainly not that crazy.”

A moment of silence followed and Junsu leant back. He actually prefered a Yoochun with a deep voice, which he loved for its softness. But even more he loved a happy Yoochun and Yoochun was happy when he could sing hight tones without any problems.

Junsu sighed quietly and then, started to sing a few random lines from Yunho in a low and coarse voice, he didn’t use often. Yoochun started to grin almost a bit foolishly. “Your … you know, this voice is damned sexy, I’m sure you would make hundreds of girls fainting when they could hear that.”
Junsu beamed immediately on him with flushed cheeks. “Really??” he felt a wave of glee and boldness flooding him and suddenly he got the idea to give something a trial.

His look became challenging, his eyelashed almost hiding his pupils and he started again to sing a couple of lines, much stronger. His voice became lower and rougher.

Junsu observed Yoochun intensely, waiting full of expectation for any reaction. But Yoochun just crossed his legs nonchalantly and looked down.

Junsu made another attempt and streched out his leg. It glided fluently under Yoochun’s chair, or better, between his legs.
A hot blush flew over Yoochun’s ckeeks.
In Junsu’s voice was now a certain undertone, which was supposed to conjure up images and fantasies of seduction.
Yoochun clung to his chair, his arms full of tention, but Junsu was to busy with his voice and game to notice. When his ‘melody’ faded away Yoochun looked up - into those challenging eyes – with a desperate facial expression. He swallowed and inhaled deeply.

“Uhm … I’ll be back in a second.” and with that Yoochun stumbled to the door, trying to keep his legs pressed together and left the room, causing Junsu’s wishes and hopes to burst.
He looked behind him and sighed disappointedly, not realizing the obvious hints he was actually looking for.
Maybe he had to work on his seducing skills.

It was already dark outside when the door opened full of verve and Jaejoong entered. “Here you are! We have been wondering where you are.” He dropped down nonchalantly on the table across from Junsu. “We spent almost an hour looking for you here.” Then he suddenly stopped and looked around . “Okay, what have you done with Yoochun? He isn’t here, it he still alive?” Junsu grinned, “Don’t worry, he just went to the washroom, I suppose he’ll be back in a minute.” Jaejoong nodded.
“Why does Yoochun has to go to the washroom, when you’re with him?” he asked matter-of-factly and Junsu felt a hot blush creeping up his neck.
“Ahm … er … I don’t know … I didn’t do anything to him,” he spluttered, “I promise, Jaejoong.”
Jaejoong burst out laughing and shot an inquisitive look at Junsu.
“Are you alright, Junsu?” he finally asked when his laughing had stopped. “I didn’t expect you to fall upon him and attack him with kisses or … Junsu?” Jaejoong’s look became even more questioning when Junsu’s cheeks became even redder. “Is something wrong? You are glowing.” He put his hand on Junsu’s forehead, but was pushed away immediately. “I’m … I’m alright … really ….” Junsu swallowed and looked to the wall on his left.
Before Jaejoong could get the chance to press him further he needed to change the topic.

“Where are Changmin and Yunho?”
“Downstairs, asking for our next weeks schedule.” Suddenly Jaejoong’s smile disappeared.
“Oh gosh, right, we’re going home next week. A lot of appointments are waiting for us, aren’t they?” Jaejoong nodded and suddenly seemed to be lost in thoughts. Junsu was relieved because that meant he wouldn’t be asked again what he had reputedly done to Yoochun. This one should actually come back soon, Junsu thought, with longing in his stomach.

“Changmin and Yunho has been together a lot lately,” Junsu declared, turning back to Jaejoong.
“Ah, really?” Jaejoong’s voice was unexpectedly sharp and ironic. But before Junsu would express his astonishment the door opened. “Alright, let’s go home.”

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The next day there had two lessons in the morning, and were supposed to refreshen their Japanese skills.

And Junsu loved Japanese lessons.

He always enjoyed the soft touch of their arms and knees and that he could feel his warmth. It gave him the impression that they were actually closer than they should be.
Furthermore it was the only time he didn’t feel out of place with his affection.

The bad thing was that the urge to snuggle against him increased every time. And this time it was utterly overwhelming.

Hanging over their book he tried to force himself to concentrate on the kanjis on the page, but he was absoluely not able to. His thoughts remained on the one, who was sitting next to him and whose fingers slightly met his arm.
Yoochun always alloted such little touches, it was his way of expressing his care for the others and Junsu had been nearly seeking after them lately.

Junsu was too aware of the intimacy of the moment today and tried to swallow his flightly emotions.
He needed to loosen the atmosphere, that was for sure.

A thought later he suddenly jumped up and started to tickle Yoochun. This one, shocked by the sudden action, squeaked loudly.
An interrupted Jaejoong stopped immediately in the middle of his sentence and stared at them in disbelief.
Yoochun laughed and tried to catch the attacker’s nimble fingers, which were teasing him. But Junsu was absolutely not willing to stop and giggled happily, feeling much more comfortable because of their laughters and the foolish situation. His fingers danced over Yoochun’s stomach and chest and he could feel his soft skin through the shirt.

Then their chuckling faded and they were suddenly hit by the odd looks of their friends. Yunho was frowning with a very dangerous glance, that told them that he was very close to a lecture about behavior in lessons. Junsu swallowed.
Their teacher was absoluetly aghast. During the long time she had taught those five boys nothing like that had happened so far. She gaped at them, trying to say something.
Jaejoong’s mouth was still open since he had been interrupted in his sentence and he stared at them with a cansuring look. His one eyebrow moved up, causing Junsu to shrink and to produce his most guilty look.

Changmin’s face was bright and he was smirking widely, his chin propped up at his arms. He was the only one, who seemed to be amused by the incident. And that quite a lot.

Yoochun arranged his clothes and smiled calmly. It’s a pity that Junsu didn’t see it, he was to distracted with looking down, avoiding the gaze of his friends and the teacher.

Jaejoong finished his sentence and the teacher nodded. Changmin was the next one, who was supposed to make a statement. The evident merriment in his voice was clearly noticeable.

Junsu was quieter now, althought the butterflies in his stomach didn’t stop teasing him.

After a while, which he spent with smiling, he let his pencil dance over the book. A minute later the page was full of little hearts.

Being in great satisfaction on his work and because his beating heart tempted him to be cheerful Junsu smiled brightly.
Untill he became aware of what he had been doing. His smile froze and something heavy seemed to sink into his stomach. Could there actually be someone more obvious?

But against all his trepidation, he was suddenly extremely curious about Yoochun’s reaction. Inhaling deeply he lifted up his head towards the one next to him. His hands were shaking when he saw him staring at the hearts.
An awkward moment passed off, in which Junsu hoped Yoochun would say anything, or at least look at him. But he didn’t, so he opened his mouth as a desperate attempt to make fun out of his drawings, but someone interrupted him.
”Yoochun? … Yoochun?”, everyone was again gazing at the named boy, especially their teacher, who seemed to be quite annoyed of the two boys.
“Um … yeah?”, Yoochun shot a questioning look at her.
An interrogation followed and Yoochun#s eyes widened. “Well, I … I have no idea.” He answered in plain English.

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During their drive home Junsu kept staring outside the window. He could sense Yoochun’s presence and pictures of the lesson and his offbeat actions circled in his head, causing a dull feeling in his stomach. It had been so obvious!
Their closeness, his silly mood and first at all the drawn hearts.
Suddenly he hated hearts and was sure he would never ever touch a pen again.
Yoochun was quite observing and clever, he had certainly realised his feelings now.
Junsu bit his lower lip to suppress a feeling of despair.
Instead nervousness arose and he pressed the particular book against his chest, feeling his own heartbeat against the hard cover.
Suddenly Changmin shifted beside him and their knees met.
”Be careful with your lip.” the mild voice interrupted Junsu’s train of thoughts and he turned over to him. His friend was smiling cheerfully and nodded towards his lips.
“Just let it go.” just now, when Junsu recognized that his teeth were still burried in his lips, he was back into reality. Removing his teeth he gave Changmin a thankful smile. Listening to his voice had always calmed Junsu down and he was very grateful for it right now.
He chuckled and nudged him and then leant against him.
Resting his head on Changmin’s shoulder Junsu was staring outside again, looking up at the high multistory-buildings, which framed the street.

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It had been Yunho’s idea to spend the afternoon at the skating rink. Yoochun and Changmin were immediately ardent and talked the whole drive about how skating was when they were tots and how funny it was to help their siblings.
Jaejoong and Junsu were rather silent, distracted with their own thoughts. Just Yunho smiled about the silly stuff his two friends were talking about, but concentrated on guiding the car through the hectic traffic.

The skating rink was almost empty because it was school-time and most students were still in lessons.
Yunho and Jaejoong decided to remain sitting by the side and to watch how their friends would manage to skate. Jaejoong leant against the railing, whereas Yunho stood behind him, propping his arms up on it.
Four eyes followed Junsu, Yoochun and Changmin, gliding over the ice, however, the other two young men were talking about private things. Things, which were only meant to be heard by Yunho and Jaejoong.

Later on when their three boys were having a race, Yunho leant closer to Jaejoong and whispered something in a low voice, causing Jae to blush. He looked down. “Yunho ah … you shouldn’t have seen that!”
“But I did!” Yunho giggled quite amused.
“Shush. Be quiet!” Jae uplifted his finger and faced his friend.
“We shouldn’t extend this topic, that just would-” a bang was heard and interrupted their conversation. Jaejoong and Yunho turned towards their friends and became immediately aware of what was going on. Yoochun sat on the floor and looked up to an ashamed Junsu.

“Are you crazy??” even Yunho shuddered by the shouting.
“Sorry, I didn’t see you.” Junsu offered his hand and Yoochun took it, but rather to pull him down as to get up.
“You didn’t see me?? You’re such a dork, Junsu! This rink is huge, but of course, you have to jostle me!!” now he stood up on his own, leaving a perplexed Junsu on the floor. “Why can’t you ever pay proper attention? ”
Yoochun turned around and his last words were hardly heard. He rubbed the arm he had fallen on and glided aside. “Such an idiot.”

Changmin looked after him with a frown. Then he moved on to Junsu, to offer him a helpful hand. “Don’t listen to him, he is moody today.”
But Junsu had listened to what Yoochun just had said and it hurt him. Why did he scold him that much? He had just jostled him a bit unwarily, but they never were attentive when they fooled around. Junsu felt as if he had just run against a wall and was pleased when Min helped him up.

When they left the skating rink Junsu’s lips were closed tightly. He was demonstrativly pouting.

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Junsu left the tramway to find himself standing between thousands of people, who were hurrying through the streets of the huge shopping area. Most of them wore winter coats and thick scarfs. The sky was pale and Junsu dug his hands deeper in the pockets of his own coat.
His friends were some meters in front of him, already on the way to the little café they used to go whenever they were here. When Junsu followed them he was still pouting and shot a frown at Yoochun, who was listening to Yunho, who certainly told him not to be that strict to his lovely Junsu. He hoped so and his lower lip moved up.
Just before they would bent off into the little side road, in which the café was he noticed that the four guys weren’t in his sight anymore. Not even Changmin, who had been walking last.
Junsu stopped and looked in the direction his friends had been a second ago. There was a mother with her child and a student in a dark uniform, but neither Changmin nor Yoochun and Yunho or Jaejoong.
Junsu sighed. Alright, he thought, you know the way perfectly.
But just in the moment he was about to go off, following them, a feeling of protest arose and his lower lip moved up again.
Why had Yoochun been so mean to him? And why did they leave him now??
With one move he turned around and walked down the street in the opposite direction.
He was hurt, especially because it was Yoochun, who had shouted at him. Yoochun never shouted. He and Junsu had always been the ones who got lectures by Yunho or Jaejoong and odd frownings by Changmin. But now it had been different.

Junsu frowned to himself in confusion and anger.
He stopped at a shop with toys and looked throught the window, without seeing any of the playthings.
Junsu leant his forehead against the cold glass and closed his eyes once.
The situation on the skating rink played through in his head; he saw himselft gliding past Jaejoong and Yunho beckoning; but then he suddenly banged together with Yoochun. He heard his shouts and felt the harsh grip, which pulled him down. Then the following words.
Junsu curled his lips and his memory repeated.
But the second replay stopped somewhere in the middle and he was stuck on the thought of Yoochun’s strong arms, pulling him down on the floor. His frowning switched into a soft look.
And somehow his imagination seemed to be very vivid suddenly, he really could feel those hands on him.

“Here you are.” the sudden voice next to his ear made Junsu jump around in surprise. He gaped astonishedly and with a wild beating heart at Yoochun, but the lovely look of his warm eyes calmed him down immediately.
“Yoochun!” he sighed and a relieved smile laid on his face. “You scared me!”
The other boy’s smile became wider and suddenly Junsu was pulled into Yoochun’s tight embrace.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you …” Junsu giggled. He knew that it wasn’t the current moment Yoochun felt sorry for. It was surely the skating rink-incident and now, lying in his arms Junsu was absolutely not able to be angry anymore.
He wrapped his arms around Yoochun’s slender body and clung to him, being flooded by a feeling of warmth. He wished the moment would never end.

Junsu was overwhelmed about how close they were and how perfectly their bodies matched, even through their coats. And then a thought popped into his mind.
He should tell him - now. It was the perfect moment, so why not? It would be the most honest way as well as a solution. Junsu just needed to speak aloud three little words and then it was done. Everything would be said …
He inhaled deeply, feeling his heartbeat filling out his entire body.
His voice was low and slightly vibrating
“Yoochun? …”

“I think the others are already waiting for us.” Yoochun disturbed Junsu’s moment of love and let go of him slowly.
“The others?” still lost in his feelings and wishes Junsu looked a bit questioningly.
“Um, yeah the others. Our band, you know, it’s called Dong Bang Shin Ki.” Yoochun grinned. “It consistes of five guys and two of them are standing here.”
Junsu chuckled and nodded. “Yeah … let’s go.”
To his astonishment Yoochun took his hand with a mild smile and let their fingers intertwine. He gave him a last wink before he turned over to guide him throught the crowd of people to the café, in which their friends were waiting with tea and cookies. A cheerful grin was glued on Junsu’s lips and he felt Yoochun’s warmth creeping up his arm. He would tell him another time.

“Hey, our lost kid.” Yunho grinned and patted his shoulder as Junsu appeared behind Yoochun, smiling a bit ashamed. He sat down next to Changmin and his cheeks flushed when his friend bantered him with teasing remarks about him and his vanishing.

“I was sure Yoochun would find you.”, Jaejoong murmured smirking and poured Junsu’s cup with tea.
Changmin, chomping some cookies, bent down closer to Junsu. ”Aaand? Did Yoochun calm you down?” he grinned nearly knowingly. Junsu chuckled and looked down. “He did!” he blushed a bit and thought about the proximity and was of the opinion that Yoochun could touch him as much as he liked and wherever he liked.

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Junsu lay in his bed and huddled a bit more against his blanket. “Changmin?” he almost whispered the words and wondered if they were actually audible.
But this question disappeared when he got an answer out of the bathroom.
“Hm?” it was an unclear grunt, escorted by the running water.

After a short while, without getting the question which he expected to come from Junsu, Changmin’s head appeared in the doorframe.
“Junsu?” he muttered into the towel, with which he dried his face.
Junsu still remained silent.
Only when Changmin climbed into his bed he raised his voice again. “Would you tell the person … the person you’re in love with … about your feelings?” he felt his heartbeat spreading down into his stomach and pushed the blanket a bit more over his chin, as an attempt to hide his nervousness.

“No.”
Changmin slipped under the sheets and arranged them until he felt comfortable enough to lie down. Then he placed his head on his pillow and cocked his head towards his friend.
“I think I would be too shy and too … ungainly, to bring out a proper sentence. But I would express it in a different way, doing something this person certainly would understand.”

Junsu nodded and looked down to the end of his bed, where his toes were curled up around the bedpost. He didn’t understand what Changmin exactly meant, but if he would mull his statement over this night, he would surely fall asleep before reaching a conclusion.

Then the light was switched off and a low “Sleep well!” reached his ears.

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Junsu sat on the sofa in the small room of the TV-company and waited for their interview in one of those live-shows they got loads of invitations for. Out of his boredom he went through several Japanese phrases he just had learned and invented suitable situations for them. Oddly enough, they all were about him and Yoochun.

It was quiet in the room; Yunho stood at the window and had a look over the city – he always was amazed by things like that. The others were somewhere else, buying drinks and trying to obtain the questions before the show actually started.

Just in the moment Junsu remembered one of those nasty little phrases, he could hardly memorise, Changmin opened the door and entered. He carried a batch of cards, on which the questions seemed to be written on, and a bottle of iced tea.
He strolled over to Junsu and gave him a little smile. “Do you want something to drink, too?” Junsu scrutinised the bottle with a little grimace. “Yes, but no iced tea.” Changmin nodded, remembering how it didn’t agree with him.
“I’ll get you something else.” He handed his friend the cards with a suddenly very encouraging smile.

And then a big idea occurred to Junsu and he was hit by the importance of the things Changmin had said the night before.

“ … I would express it in a different way …”

Staring at Min, who turned over with a last wink, to leave him again, the idea seemed to manifest in his head and Junsu jumped out of the sofa.
There had to be a felt pen in his bag, he thought and rummages in it as deep as he could.
When he finally found it, he waved with it triumphantly.

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Junsu clung to the butch of cards, fidgety to the edges of his fingertips.
He waited restively for the reappearance of his friends, or rather Yoochun. He had already forgotten about Changmin and his drink, although his throat was dry.

Finally, after ages, the door opened and Jaejoong and Yoochun trod in. Junsu’s heart nearly jumped out of his rib cage when he discovered them and suddenly his fingers clasping to the cards began to tremble.

Jaejoong strolled over to Yunho to hand him a bottle, but Yoochun couldn’t really get ahead because Junsu were beckoning to him vehemently and pointing to the seat next to him. He couldn’t stop an abashed smile and therewith made Yoochun smile a bit confused as well.

Yoochun followed the request of the gestures and dropped down on the sofa.

“Have you been here the whole-“, Yoochun tried to start a conversation, but stopped when Junsu laid his finger on his lips.
“I need to talk to you.“ He said in a high tone and flushed cheeks.
“Hm?”
“There is something you should know.”
Junsu nudges him softly on the arm and arranged himself that he could look at him properly.
Swallowing the ecstatic huddle inside of him he inhaled deeply. Then he looked up with an awkward smile and said, “Look.”

Junsu hold up one of those cards, showing its backside on which he had written on a big “I fell in love with you!”

______________

To Junsu’s mind minutes went by before Yoochun showed any reaction. His eyes, which had been glued to the card moved up and met Junsu’s own ones. The surprised expression on his face disappeared gradually and turned into a gentle look, causing Junsu’s heart to sink down to his stomach.
Then the full lips, which had been teasing him in his dreams, opened, ready to reply.

“Hey, Junsu. I bought you orange juice. I hope you’re fine with it.” Junsu turned over to a blithesome Changmin, aghast because of the fast change of topic. He looked up to him and nodded slowly.

Feeling sudden anxiety spreading in his body, causing his hands to tremble, Junsu stood up and took the bottle from Changmin. Without looking at Yoochun once more he walked over to the table, slightly staggering.
Clinging to the wooden piece of furniture he took a deep breath and waited for his heart to slow down to a normal speed.

Junsu opened the bottle and sipped on his juice as an excuse to not look back to the sofa. He still felt as if he would hover over the floor.

There was a mumbling in the part of the room behind him, but Junsu was mentally too far away to realise it properly. He stared at the question-cards, which lay on the table and were ugly and harassing now.
He had to get rid of them, he thought and frowned, as fast as possible.

“Hey Su, we should be going.” a hand found his way to Junsu’s neck, and caused him to almost jump out of his skin. His own startled expression met Jaejoong’s smiling face.
“Jaejoong. You’re always so quiet.” Junsu sighed in relief.
“Here, you take these ones.” and then he handed his friend the cards, which were baring his deepest secret.

With a much lighter feeling Junsu smiled at Jaejoong, now, who wasn’t that pleased to carry the cards and patted his shoulder. Then he followed Yunho and the others out of the room, trying not to meet Yoochun’s eyes.

______________

Later that day Junsu entered the huge dining-room and took a glance over the neatly decorated tables. The hall was nearly empty and he discovered Jaejoong and Yunho immediately. Sauntering over to them he ran his hand casually through his hair, which was still damp from his recent shower.
When he reached their table Yunho grinned at him teasingly. “Oh dear, you found the way on your own? How many times did you get lost?” Junsu stuck out his tongue at him and was about to answer when Changmin joined them through the door to the terrace and took place next to Junsu.

He glimpsed at the table and then at Jaejoong and Yunho. Then his look was stuck at Yunho.
“Your hair has become quite long lately.” He stated. Yunho looked up at him and let his fingers run through some strands.
“You’re right. I want it to grow.”
He looked absently at the cusps of one strand, but then he noticed Changmin’s frowning.
“You don’t like it, do you?” his voice was suddenly an octave deeper than before.
“It’s a bit … unusual.”
“You’re expressing yourself very carefully.” Now Yunho frowned as well, letting go off the strand in his hand.
“Does “anomalous” appeal better to you?”

“Anomalous?” Yunho’s eyes widened.
Changmin shrugged.
“Your hairstyle looks like Jaejoong’s and we don’t need another girl.” Jaejoong’s lips curled in an amused way and he looked to the ceiling, not willing to comment anything.

Yunho’s frowning deepened.
“Changmin, you’re so-” but he didn’t finish this sentence, being cut off by the low and slightly croaky voice of Junsu, who wasn’t in the mood to follow this conversation anymore.
“Where is Yoochun?”
“Outside, on the terrace.” Changmin said without pulling his look away from Yunho.
Junsu nodded and left his friends with their argumentativeness.

“He seemed a bit sick lately.” Changmin added, when Junsu was out of his sight.
“You mean love-sick?” Yunho finally broke their eye-contact

All the three of them looked into different direction, pretending to be distracted. It was quiet, only the low chinking of the teaspoon Changmin played with was audible.
Now the tension was really sensible.

“I think he is not the only one.” Jaejoong broke the silence and smiled knowingly at his two friends.

~

Yoochun stood outside and looked over the nightly park behind the hotel. His hands were dug into his pockets and his shirt and his hair waved slightly in the wind.
Junsu enjoyed the view of this dainty body and smiled uncontrollably by the swirling emotions in his stomach.
The scene before the TV-show repeated in his head and he had to inhale deeply before he could walk over to him.
Unfortunately he totally failed at the attempt to be nonchalant.

“Heya there.” Yoochun turned over. When he beheld Junsu a bright smile appeared on his lips and he winked once. “Junsu? Why aren’t you with the others? It is quite cold outside.”
When Junsu smiled back sheepishly, his smile became mild, nearly endearing.
“Uhm, I … Min … Changmin …” being used to a foolish grinning Yoochun Junsu was stuck by how gentle this smile was. Focusing on those sensuous lips he wasn’t able to get a coherent sentence out of his mouth.

“Was he again provoking Yunho’s nerves?” Yoochun said helpfully in a low voice and earned a puzzled nodding.
“What? He is-? What do you mean? They have been kind of reserved towards each other lately.”
“I think Changmin is a little jealous and tries to get a bit more attention.” Yoochun chuckled. “He is very much into people in authoritarian positions.”
Junsu’s eyes widened. “You mean-?”
“Yes, it’s kind of a love-dance, you know?”

Yoochun failed at smirking amused over Junsu’s astonished expression, instead his mouth curved to a loving smile.
He made a step forward and now stood directly in front of the other young man. The soft expression lying in his eyes made Junsu motionless, he just felt a warm hand on his neck.
Then Yoochun moved again and their lips met.

Junsu clung to his arm, trying to detain his knees from buckling. They felt as soft as candy floss.

When he comprehended the situation completely a high and ecstatic moan left his throat and his tongue finally became active. Gentle fingers settled on his waist while he was sucking on Yoochun’s lower lip.
Both wrapped their arms around each other at the same time, unwilling to let each other go.

FanFiction

2006-10-31T23:57:01Z

First Part: 33 facts about JaeHoMin

Title: Facts about Yoochun and Junsu
Pairing: YooSu
Raiting: PG- 13, but implied sex

Facts about Yoochun and Junsu

01. Every time Yoochun buys himself ice-cream, he is very lucky when he gets two spoons of it because Junsu is either licking on his ice-cream or on his lips.

02. When Yoochun and Junsu are lying on the floor in the living-room, giggling, chuckling and kissing each other, nobody can get into their world.

03. Yoochun never wants to fall asleep at night; but the fact that Junsu’s face is the first thing he sees in the morning makes it easier.

04. Each christmas Yoochun gets a huge box of askew and broken chocolate-chip-cookies and he loves to eat them.

05. It took Junsu a bit of time and trouble to get as close to Yoochun as he is today, but he thinks it is worth all the patience and restraint.

06. Changmin knows that, when he calls Junsu and nobody answers after the secound time, he can’t attain him. In most of the cases Yoochun is playing with Junsu and his balls.

07. When Jaejoong flirtes with Junsu and Yoochun stays cool, Junsu gets quite fidgety and jealous.

08. Junsu thinks Yoochun is very good at playing with balls. He always takes him out to the soccerfield.

09. Because Junsu loves cookies a lot, Yoochun is very lucky when he gets a couple of the christmas-biscuits he has gotten as a present.

10. Formerly Yoochun hated christmas and to spend his holidays “at home”. But recently he loves it as much as he loves every other time he can be with Junsu.

11. Junsu has laughed at the love-bewitched Changmin who couldn’t think coherently. Then he met Yoochun and Junsu was bedeviled too.

12. If Jaejoong is bothering Junsu too much, Yoochun runs towards them and becomes a real protector.

13. The meetings with their management-team are spend writing little “Wanna kiss you madly”-notes for Yoochun.

14. Yoochun always looks as guilty as Junsu does, when they get a lecture from Yunho about a broken vase; also if it wasn’t his fault.

15. Junsu always wakes up when a thunderstorm is raging otuside. Then he wakes Yoochun up, not because he is scared, but because he wants to do sizzling things.

16. Since Junsu has met Yoochun he is a love-addcit.

17. Every sunday afternoon Junsu tries to cook a big dinner and every Sunday evening Jaejoong needs to make a reparation.

18. Yoochun thinks that the lines Junsu sings are the soundtrack of his life.

19. Since Yoochun fed Junsu with all of his ice-cream on their first date, Junsu has a weak spot for sweets; especially those which are owned by Yoochun (or which are Yoochun).

20. Sometimes Yoochun gets rigorous looks from Yunho for turning the once been pure and straight Junsu into a moving seduction; Yoochun then shrugs and grins and says he couldn’t help himself.

21. Yoochun just shruges when Junsu is supposed to sing a duet with a female singer.

22. Neither Changmin’s watery eyes nor Jaejoong’s pouting make Yoochun doing something; it is only Junsu’s look, even if he has no idea what is going on.

23. When Yoochun and Junsu had their first date they were at the skating rink and it started to snow.

24. Junsu realised that Yoochun has wicked fingers when they shared a bed together the first time; and now he is bewitched.

25. Every time Yoochun sees Junsu smiling he falls for him again and again

26. Junsu loves to snuggle into Yoochun’s trousers.

27. To Yoochun’s mind there is nothing smoother than Junsu’s skin.

28. Sometimes Junsu is frustrated because his bum has another shape then others. Yoochun then drags him into his bedroom and shows him what wonderful things Junsu can do with his wonderful bottom.

29. It is only Yoochun’s hug, which gives Junsu energy to get through times of pressure.

30. In Japanese-lessons Yoochun and Junsu always share a book and whenever Junsu is bored he draws little hearts witht heir names in on the pages.

31. Junsu is confident that it will last until his death; because breaking apart with Yoochun would certainly kill him.

32. Changmin thinks Junsu is pure and chaste; Yoochun then shakes his head while he is remembering how hard and rough Junsu does it like sometimes.

33. When Junsu cries and Yoochun embraces him gently everything is fine again.

34. It is hard for Yoochun to sing his lines without having Junsu’s voice heard before.

35. In their holidays Yoochun and Junsu secretly stay at home and use the empty house for things which involve heated rooms, a cool shower and much of the two of them.

36. Being alone means for Junsu being with Yoochun. Alone.

37. Nothing makes Junsu desperate, only a crying Yoochun.

blue_berii @ 2006-10-24T06:28:00

2006-10-24T06:35:39Z

Does somebody has pictures or clips in which Junsu is not as bright and lovely as he always is, but more serious? I know it's kind of ... impossible? Therefore, I don't have anything about him where he is sad or serious. Sorry, it's an odd questions ^^;;; but maybe I'm so lucky and somebody really has something.

nothing important happened actually. The end of this october is quite quiet. Oh, we had no electricity last night, between 3 and 4 o'clock, but that a rather random thing to talk about *shrugs*

I hope we'll get internt at home soon!

blue_berii @ 2006-10-19T10:27:00

2006-10-19T10:49:38Z

Mah it is so cold >.<
It became very cold during the last three days and everybody is wearing his winter coat. Furthermore it is terrible dark in the morning and it doesn't become any lighter until eight o'clock.

School is alright, we go some tests back and mine were okay, but today I got my mark in English and I got a B in the test and a B for the oral-mark. Guys, I haven't get any B for the last two and a half year ! ^______^ (except in art last and philosophy in year 11)
maaahhh *bounce*
I thank you all ! Everybody who is talking English with me !! ^___^

I miss you all ! (My mum said we'll have internet next month again -.- )

PS:

I borrowed "Paradise kiss" from Sei, and I love it ! All my dream to become a designer come up in me again and the pictures are beautiful ! Ai Yazawa is a very talented Mangaka !

Picture from NANA:

blue_berii @ 2006-10-08T10:35:00

2006-10-08T10:47:22Z

last entry (28.Sept):
I arrived home today shortly before midnight, quite tired but it was a great trip. I did everything what I wanted to do in London, except eating cornish pasties (but you rather eat them in Devon or Cornwall anyway).

As a group we saw a play by Shakespeare (very nice! But quite hard to understand); listened to someone at Speaker’s Corner in Hyde Park (people meet there to listen to speakers, who want to express their opinion about current topics). We attended several interesting museums; went through Harrods (you can buy everything there); we got a guided tour through the houses of Parliament at Westminster (very interesting! A place full of history); we passed by the buildings of the Stock Exchange, Lloyds and the Bank of England and we watched a court procedure at the Old Bailey (very serious mood).

With a friend or two I went down the Oxford Street, which is well-know for all the shops and boutiques; we were out on Tuesday evening and even drove home with a cap. I love to take a taxi in London, especially at night. I wouldn’t dare to drive on my own, the traffic is quite mixed up and you have to be very attentive not to bump together with someone, but our driver did it very well and it was fun.

I really enjoyed the trip and was happy that we went with our English advance level course and not with the German adv. course (it wouldn’t have been that nice).
(We took the Tube a lot of times (the underground railway) and some grils made a joke out of it because we have the same word in German, just with another pronounciation and meaning. It’s kind of a paste in Germany and we nearly always pronounce it in the german way :D )

That’s a very short summary of the trip, but I will tell you some more when I load some pictures up (I really need to do that finally).

I hope you all are fine!
I still don’t have internet at home so I can’t read all your entries yet, but I’ll do that in two weeks. I won’t be here the next week either, remember, the practical training ~.~ I’m actually not in the mood for it because I decided last week that that’s not the business I want to work in, lol, perfect timing.
Anyway, I’ll see how it will be like.

NOW:
I'm at my best friend's house and therefore I can be in the internet for a while.
My permanent absence annoyes me somehow because I have no idea how you are and what happened in your lives. I phoned with my mum recently and she said we still don't have even a working phone. This moving thing was a very bad incident, it had a bad effect on a lot of things, including my mood, my ability concerning school-work, the test, my home-feeling, my connection to friends....
anyway, I really hope we'll get it done, or the electrician gets it done.

alright, my mood became better since I'm here, but nevertheless the lack of connections at home is still annoying - I need the internet for school-stuff as well as for the search for addresses for applications. And this case is quite urgend.

Today we'll go out, to a Sushi-bar. Nearly everytime I'm here we're going there and it is always very nice ^__^

I really hope you all are fine!
I will answer your comments soon and some time I will read all your entries I have missed!

blue_berii @ 2006-09-21T12:50:00

2006-09-21T10:59:55Z

Omg, you know what?
I have been online on Tuesday and answered all the comments I got. And then i was again online yesterday and have 30 new comments. 30!! I hve never got that much comments 8D

My days have been quite nice lately, althought I don't have internet at home XD

I had a driving lesson yesterday and we change a car-wheel. When we had to loose the screw (hope it's the right word) we used a scrw--wrench and our teacher said we can push it down with our foot. Everybody could easily push it down by standing next to the car and pushing it one foot. And then it was my turn and it really didn't work XD I was standing on the screw-wrench and it didn't move one bit, lol, I was even kind of jumping on it XD
My teacher said I'm a too little girl -.-

I got a new idea because a friend of mine told me about a gap-year or a work-and-travel-year today and hey, that would be an opportunity too.
The thing is, I should collect information very fast now, because it is quite late ^^;;;

Alright, maybe I'll be online tomorrow again, but I'm not sure necause I have to pack my stuff for next week

if I'm not, have nice two weeks ^__^

blue_berii @ 2006-09-14T14:34:00

2006-09-14T12:41:07Z

lol and again because I won't be online untill tuesday
The English test was alright, comparison between a screen adaption of a scene and the play itself, an analyses and we could chose between a comment and a text creation and of course I wrote a text, I always avoid to write comments XD
We had to write a soliloquy for Lady Macbeth *shrugs*

I came home about seven o'clock yesterday -.-
Hopefully I'll be home earlier next week, but I'll there are several things which want to be done every week. (clarinet lessons, driving lessons -.-)

my mum said yesterday that I wasn't listening to DBSK lately o.o hu she can distinguish them from all the other singer 8D that's my mum lol
I was wondering how she learned their voices, but actually, their quite unique, aren't they?

It is very sunny, as if we had proper summer, but actually it is already the end of the summer.
I've got a sport-lessons now -.-
I hadn't have sport for weeks huuu

bye ^____^

blue_berii @ 2006-09-13T13:50:00

2006-09-13T11:57:08Z

just a quick entry before I have to go to my chemistry lessons ~.~
It is a long day today again, I think I won't come home before 4/5 o'clock the whole week. Till now there always was something which kept me in town, so came back at 5 yesterday and at 6 on Monday.
The maths-test is done, finally, and tomorrow it the English test ... hu, we'll see how it will be. Hopefully it won't be a comparison between a scene in the book and one in a film.

It is so sunny outside, but we've to study untill friday. And on friday it shall be rainy again -.-
That's Germany lol
Anyway, the 6th-form-room is emptier now and I should go. We were late to out german-lesson today, so I shouldn't be late now to ~.~
It is always quite hectical when we go to our German-lesson because it is in another school and we have to past the whole twon-centre -.-

anyway, have a nice afternoon ^__^

blue_berii @ 2006-09-08T21:58:00

2006-09-08T20:13:25Z

It is about three or four months ago, when I found this organisation, which sends you around the world. It is the only organisation with which you can go to Korea and I sent my application.
I got an answer today and am invited to a meeting, which shall prepare me and other students for the travel.
It is in two weeks, but I won't go. I'll phone them and asked for another meeting (I read something about a meeting in January).

We wrote the German test today and it was okay. Better than the last tests and I think i finally got a text structured ~.~ I always found structuring my own texts very difficult, but this time as well as on Wednesday when we wrote the history test, it went quite well ^-^
I'm already curious about the results, althought I have to write three further tests next week ^O^
And I found someone who will learn Physics with me because I have no idea about the stuff the teacher tells us.

I was listening to the radio the whole day, while I wa spacking the stuff for tomorrow, but it is somewhat annoying -.- they play certain songs very often furthermore there are mostly this nonsense-songs ~.~
but I don't care I need to pack my stuff >.<
it is so exhausting ... but I got a few ideas for my YooSu fic ^___^
I hope I get it finished soon, keke

alright, I'll send you some mails when I'm at school

byyyeeee have a nice time ^____^

blue_berii @ 2006-09-03T16:27:00

2006-09-03T14:44:03Z

It is raining today, it started a short while after we had breakfast.
Such weather isn't very encouraging or rousing.

I read some stuff but far too less, lol
I rather did my English homework, which I will have on Wednesday and avoided the tasks in Maths and German and I'll have both subjects tomorrow ^^;;;

I'm really in the mood for having lemon cake just now, it could cheer me up. I had a verrry delicious one yesterday, after we had worked int he house. I think I have a weakness for cakes sometimes, especially for lemon cakes.

Somehow it is a proper sunday. I'm wearing comfortable clothes, listen to music and write and entry, instead of learning. Besides it is raining and quite grey outside.

anyway, I really should do something.

blue_berii @ 2006-08-31T21:18:00

2006-08-31T19:28:48Z

I just found this picture:

(though it destroys the JaeHo) there IS love *-* they are so close ... and YunChun can be such a nice pairing !
I really like it lately!

I just heard the chinese version of 'Timeless' and Junsu's voice is amazing - again !

it isn't late, though I'm so tired =_=
habe good night

blue_berii @ 2006-08-31T14:49:00

2006-08-31T13:21:25Z

The last two days had been very tiring.
I'm actually stumbling through all the school-stuff quite well, but there were so much to do the last two days that I was working till ... dunno, late ^^;;;
My history teacher told us yesterday what we have to know for the test we'll write next Wednesday. "You best learn the four pages which were homework by heart as well as the six papers I gave you!" - the whole class: Oô ?
It good that we'll write just history and German next week, and then the other advance level course, maths and physiks (x_x help) the week after.

I hope I won't be absent that much ^^,;;

It was raining here on Tuesday, exactly when i wrote the letter for Kei.
It seems as if we had autum here this month. August is actually the hottest time, but this year I went out with a coat oO
Though I like to sit inside over my books when it is reaining outside, or when I lie in my bed, nearly falling asleep.

I'm missing the sports-lessons at the moment. I missed to have a look on the clock, and I'm scared of hokey now, especially of the players XD
I need to write a film-script of two scenes of Macbeth. I really enjoy my english advance level course lately. Yesterday I learned that an equivocator is someone, who speaks with deliberate ambiguity. There are so many nice words and expressions in the english language ^-^

Lately I found a song by Minagawa Junko, which is quite nice.
http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=905D5B3965F9145C&rcpt=noriko-hk@hotmail.com
maybe you like it too.

On Friday someone, who actually calls himself a friend of mine, said something mean and I recognized it not until Sunday -.-
It is always the same with him. He says things, which really annoy me, but because he looks as if he would be a nice person and I used to like him once , I don't realize it immediately, or I don't defence myself in the moment. And you know what? He has noooo idea about that -_- He is blind and stubborn like hell and if I would tell him "Hey, I was pissed because of that" he would say: "Really? You shouldn't I didn't mean it this way."; and would look as if I hurt him.
It is amazing that people just can close their eyes when they don't want to recognize things. He is a perfect example for that.

anyway, sorry for all the random stuff, it is quite boring over here ^-^
I hope it will snow soon !

the diru-drabble

2006-08-24T15:09:05Z

I finally got it done, the diru-drabble for higeki_kiseki
and here it is:

When Kaoru wakes up he inhales deeply. The just dreamed pictures swirl in his head and he tries to catch them a bit childishly. But then he hears the rain outside and realizes that he is fully awake.

Still not willing to open his eyes he shifts a bit and is immediately stuck by the fact that something is lying on his chest.

A questioning sigh leaves his mouth and he wraps his arms around a warm body.

Slender fingers are placed on his stomach and tickle him a bit by forming a little fist. Soft hair falls over his bare shoulders and Kaoru smells who has slipped into his bed.

He wraps his other arm around the shoulder and his fingers meet cold skin.

A second later he lies on his side and Shinya is gently pressed against in chest, well covered with the warm blanket.

A thunder is heard and Kaoru knows why he has a little guest in the middle of the night. He places a little kiss on the other’s forehead and sighes sleepily.
________________

omg quite .... senseless oO

blue_berii @ 2006-08-21T22:06:00

2006-08-21T20:26:03Z

I love it when Jaejoong does that:

blue_berii @ 2006-08-21T20:29:00

2006-08-21T19:49:29Z

I tried to write the diru-drabble but my head is kind of heavy - I got a bad headache ><
So I will write it soon, but not today.

Yesterday, i got a proof that there are handsome guys in Pb (my hometown) !
I havn't seen one for ages and then he wa sin my house. We will move out soon and the family, which will move in the house, we're still living in, visited us to show their children the rooms and stuff. I frist saw only the little kids and then he was standing next to me, very close by the way. He was quite thin and wore a black, good looking shirt. He had long hair with steps and much volume. And a voice, whcih was veeerrry deep *-* why did he talk so less?
I think he liked my room quite a lot, lol, but we were just looking at each other shyly ^^v

oh and because I saw the different hairstyles luvkangta had, I post some pictures of my blond hair here:

omg >< I was 14 on this pic, it is four years old

I don't have a picture of the red-black hair at the moment as well as pictures about my total black hair (I didn't like it), sorry, but I've got some of the red hair ^_^

This was ahm, one year ago - I cut my hair by myself and on this pic is doesn't look that awful XD

http://static.animexx.de/web2//mitglieder/bilder/2/7/810772.gross.jpg <- this was in December

and this is today - with ym room in the background 8D

lol and I found a pic on which I have a hairstyle which reminds me on yoochun's hairstyle now (lol my imagination)
it is ages ago and he didn't have this hairstyle in those times, I think I even didn't know about DBSK Oo
(but you can't see much of the hair ><)
http://i78.photobucket.com/albums/j110/park_04_2006/DSCN3051.jpg
tell me if I'm wrong ! ><

lol endless pic-spam by me 8DDD
anyway, I need to read some texts about Macbeth now ... and maybe make a hot-water-bottle, I'm feeling somewhat sick ~.~
have a nice evening !

PS: chi hasn't been online for a while o.o I hope nothing bad happened !